Live. Laugh. Love.

Live, laugh, love. These are three of the most important things in life that I think I'm forgetting to do lately. I know it was because of a lot of problems that had me almost give up. I have absolutely zero motivations and naturally, inspirations rarely come as well. Ranting is what I've been doing, focusing on problems, when what I should be doing is to find solutions to my problems. But here's the thing, how do you solve a performance problem in work?

I really don't want to dwell on that anymore. I've had it with ranting (I hope. Hehe), crying over work (yes, I did), anger, and dwelling about how hopeless I am right now. As my mum said, there are still a lot of problems that are worse than mine so I have to be thankful. Yeah, I think I'll do that. I'll start thinking about only the good things that I have. No, not just that, the blessings that I'm receiving. There's still more to come, I know. So, I'll just focus on those. Life will be easier lived that way.

I'm guilty and very much ashamed to admit that I've almost given up my beliefs, given up on myself, and the gravest sin of all, I've almost given up on God. I was crazy back then. Crazy because of all the negative vibes, problems, and anger surrounding me. I've almost drowned, but He pulled me back up again. He still hasn't given up on me and I know He won't. So, I want to take this opportunity to say my simple thanks.

Thank you Lord for not giving up on me, for continuously blessing me even when I'm already at fault, and basically for everything. I owe you a lot and I hope in time, I'll be able to repay you by making you really proud of what I've become. I Love You.

I've said it. Yay! I feel so light-hearted and warm right now. In fact, I wanna sing my made-up song. LOL!

Bad vibes go away, don't come again another day.

Haha. Does it make sense? Well, anyway, I'm just so happy I'm okay now. I know there will still be lots of problems to come but I hope I don't lose my sanity over them. Hehe.

Another song,

Umaaraw, umuulan
Umaaraw, umuulan
Ang buhay ay sadyang ganyan

Umaaraw, umuulan

Wag kang maawa sa iyong sarili
Isipin na wala ka nang silbi
San’ dambuhalang kalokohan

Bukas sisikat ding muli ang araw
Ngunit para lang sa may tiyagang
Maghintay............

Kaibigan,
Wag kang magpapatalo
Kaibigan,
Itaas ang noo

Thanks a lot to the people who've helped me get through it all. My friends, my boyfriend, and my family. And of course, God. =)

Here's to another great journey ahead. Cheers!