I know it is too early to welcome the change of season, after all, we're just in the middle of February, but I'm just excited to see lively and vibrant colors again. I do like Fall, but I'm not really a fan of the gloomy weather coupled by the rain showers it brings. But I admit there is joy in seeing green change into dramatic hues of orange, yellow, and brown and stepping onto crunchy fallen leaves is a plus as well. And weird as it may be to some, looking at skeletal trees lined up gives me a sort of calm albeit with a tinge of sad. And to some, Fall is a favorite for the fashion it brings - layers and layers of clothing, fun, classic scarves, cute rain boots, coats and topped with an equally cute or nice umbrella - and you're just about ready to sing and dance in the rain, in style! But I'm really not one to talk about fashion, I still have yet to acquire a sense of it!

Going back to the topic at hand (for a minute there I was lost in Fall), this post is really but a poor excuse for me to post some photos I edited way back, but I've been lazy to post at that time. As apparent as it is, timeliness in blogging is something like a "Whut?" to me. Haha!

A little backgrounder, these photos were taken in the Summer of last year when we were enjoying the sun and clear skies of Victoria's Butchart Gardens. I felt absolutely like a girl in love (you know, when you feel like flowers are blooming around you 'cause of giggles of love). So yeah, this might just be me when I am blissfully in love with someone. ♥

Aha! Moment

In my heart I know this to be true:

"Everything ends well for anyone who believes... in God."

When I wrote that after my three-month ordeal was over.

But this morning, my heart skipped a beat after reading this:

"Everything is possible for one who believes." - Jesus (Mark 9:23)

Upon reading that verse, I quickly thought about that line I wrote more than a year ago which had the same context. And I just thought, "Those were not my words, but God's!"  To have seen a reference, a biblical truth, to what I've believed all along has left my heart smiling in awe. See, I wasn't wrong! 

It is written: "Is anything too hard for the LORD?" (Gen 18:14) And He made Sarah, Abraham's wife, give birth to a son, Isaac, at ninety-years old when she laughed and believed she was already past the age of child-bearing.

Never doubt God.

Oh hey, 2011!

I've been MIA again but surely December and January are valid enough reasons as to my absence in the blogosphere. The end and first of the year always puts everyone scurrying about different places trying to get things done and going, and always, always coupled with a full-blown reflection of what life's been in the passing year, and evaluation as to how to make the coming one better. Gone is that seasonal emotional hulabaloo and as I've done my fair share of evaluation on life, I think I've come to terms with what I want to do for the rest of it.

It was the renewed passion, now burning more than ever, which has awakened much inspiration in my life to have a goal, see the bigger picture, and pursue it. I must have thanked God a thousand times already for giving me this goal and also for pleading for help to be with me as I work on it. And He has heard it and given me an assurance in this: "Being confident of this, that He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus." (Philippians 1:6). Ah, how sweet it is to be loved by Him! It is simply amazing, I tell you. It blows my mind to see my goal sort of go in the right direction, to see a vision of what could be, if God wills it to. I just recently experienced a moment like that and I was like, "Oh my gosh, He really is at work here!" I immediately told my Mom about it and she said that I only have to want it so much and everything will work out. It is a true story folks that wanting it so much in your heart and praying for it fervently will produce results that'll surprise you. Now, this dream isn't a fast and the furious journey. It'll take time, perhaps a year or two, before I can harvest anything but the journey to my pursuit of it excites me too. When all is well and done, it will be one of my greatest testimonies for sure.

Reflecting on what my life's been like last year resulted in me removing some depression-triggering stuff. We all have that, right? Stuff we do that seem to put us on a high at the moment but then zaps us into somewhat Dr. Phil sessions where we wonder again what life is about and what our purpose is in this world. Tiring, no, exhausting, is what it is to be always going back to that state. With me it's not so much a depression, but more like because of the things that I continuously do, I forget to live in the here and the now (I've pondered about this lots of times!). At the end, I find myself in a slump as I've neglected a lot of responsibilities and my room is such a bloody mess, it feels like I'm starting my life over again. Jeez. It is so unhealthy. Why I keep on doing that beats me. I must be really just an idiot. But oh well, I'm organizing everything now up to the schedule of my daily crunches on my Pilates ball (haha, yes, I get reminders to do it). I'm extreme, I can be really OC with my schedule or I'd have that "the-hell-I-care-attitude" at times. It's driving me insane, too, not being consistent with this. I'll just always pray for Him to be with me everyday, whatever I'm doing, wherever I am.

You can tell I'm having a good day, eh? I'm rather talkative today, it must be because I'm having a good hair day. Let's all admit it, we women feel great when our "crowns" are just the way they should be. (Lol) No doubt I'd still go through "the dreaded moments" (y'all know what I'm talking about) but I know it'll pass, it always does. I'll just talk it out with Him, He'll comfort me in His arms and I'm back on my feet again. Plus, I'd just look forward to little stuff that excite me, that always does the trick!