... of blogging, that is.

I had to deal with learning the essentials of Web Analytics and working as one too that I've had no spare time to blog anymore. But that doesn't mean I'm not a blogger anymore! I may have left my work as a blogger but I'm still in love with it, in love with writing in general. Time may not be of my luxury right now but soon I know I'll have it wrapped around my finger! (Insert evil laugh here. Hehe)

Anyway, it's the end of February and what better way to celebrate it than to be a little nostalgic and reminisce all the laughs and great times that February gave me, right?

So, here they are, my February Memoirs:

* I Started as a Junior Web Analytics Specialist
* Got the increase that I want! Woohoo! (I'm telling you, The Law of Attraction is the best!)
* Celebrated my Hunny Mike's birthday with his friends at his hometown in Montalban, Rizal
* We got that much-awaited "letter."
* Finally went to Tagaytay with Hunny Mike for his post birthday/Valentine celebration. Yey!
* Applied for Sun Postpaid Plan. (At long last! I've been planning this since last year!)
* Started planning with my officemates for our Subic Getaway on April! (Subic sun, here we come!)
* Surprised Kupy on his birthday with two Jolly Spaghetti meals (which, if I may add, he gulped down in single eating. Haha!) and his own "Kupy Cake."
* Balay ni Juan birthday celebration of Kupy. (Vidoeoke and drinks till midnight! Yeah!)
* Met Rica Peralejo. She interviewed our boss about PSP, Xbox, etc. for her segment in Umagang Kay Ganda (which I wasn't able to watch. Too bad!) But you can't deny it, our company rocks the coolest! (Wha? Hehe!)
* Met our "hot boss" from the US. He shall remain unnamed for corporate reasons. Boooo!
* Got my Starbucks planner c/o my Tita Gigi. =D
* Got meself a purple phone casing! Yey yey yey! I so love purple! Oh and Aysa also got me a purple cork/white board! Now, how cool is that? I'm drowning in purple! But don't save me! =P

I just remembered a better way to celebrate the end of February - getting the much-anticipated load of bread! LOL!

Funny iMac Moments

Hehe! These are pictures captured using one of our company's designers' brand new Apple iMac! Saya lang! Hehe!

Their iMacs just came in today and so we were suddenly excited to check it out and capture some funny pictures as well! =D

Kissing meself! LOL

Fussball Khoriks! :))

Pastel Effect (?)

Normal. Hehe!

Figure it out! Haha!

Happy Koreans! LOL!

Beheaded Ed! Hehe!

The Ambiescent

Post Christmas Party Thoughts :)

Our company's Christmas Party at The Glass Garden was a blast! We won the Christmas Presentation Contest! Now, our marketing department has P15,000 to spare! Haha! Well, there are no definite plans yet as to how we will use the money. But anyway, the downside to it is that I did not win any of the prizes! Huhu! :(( But anyway, we really enjoyed our time! Next year ulit! Haha!

Here are some pictures from that night! These are taken from the multiply accounts of Nan and Ronan. And some are from Maje's and Rhiz' as well. :)

Check out more pictures from my multiply account.

They're the reason why I stay. :)

My Hunny Mike came to celebrate with us. :)
Curly me. Haha!
Jingle Bell Rock Moment =s
Giddy up giddy up! Well, we pulled it off! :)
My brother from another mother! =P
And another brother from I don't know where! =P
The Dancers :D
Hiphop Moment
Moment ko to LOL
Lovers Zacharoo and Sarah :)
Yey! We won 15K baby!

The Talent

Two minutes of staring at my computer screen and I literally didn't know how to put a mind-grabbing and interesting introduction to what I want to say. The backspace key was pressed a number of times in an attempt to make this introduction worthy enough for the whole content to be read. I don't know if this introduction was successful but this is the only way I can think of right now.

I guess what I am trying to say is I've lost the talent that I think I have - and now had - in writing. The realization came as I was reading a post a colleague made in her blogsite. It was just so well-written that I cannot help but realize that I haven't written such an interesting and promising article in quite a while. As a student, I had been praised for how I was able to put together words and present them in an interesting and in an almost-perfect-grammar way. I rejoiced. I finally have a God-given talent that I can cultivate and be proud of. And that I did.

Despite the negative and discouraging comments I got from my parents who kept on saying that they do not see that passion I have in writing, I kept on with my goal of being a writer. In the journalism school I attended, I studied with much excitement for the realization of my dream. Three years of reading, studying, doing reports, and writing articles and news and I was able to go out into the world with a diploma in my hand and good grades I hope to present to companies I want to be a part of. I was successful in my application as a web copywriter and so I began my quest to become a notable writer in time.

Fast forward to five months after entering the company and my dream suddenly became my worst nightmare. I had been told that my writing style had not been so well and that no improvement was made. I was crushed. I had been so sure that I am at least a good writer and then I have been slapped with the truth - that I need a lot of improvement. Okay, the truth really hurts. I blame myself mostly for what happened. I became so lax thinking that I was doing well and because I got such good grades when still in school. Apparently, I can't use that to defend myself against the truth because in reality, I had not shown the proof of these good grades through the work I was tasked to do.

I began thinking that what my parents told me was the truth - that writing isn't really for me. I had just been told that I was good at creating good articles and I've mistaken it as the career which I ought to pursue. Another slap there. Confusion clouded my mind and I became emotionally unstable. What was I to do? I knew at the time that I had to face this challenge and improve my writing but I just had no courage and motivation to hold on to that time.

It was a struggle to create even just a passable article. I'd like to think that I have been successful in doing that but I know it's a mistake to think that way. If I become lenient again, then I'll just be repeating and repeating this experience until I've learned my lesson. So, I'd like to think that I'm on my way there and that improvement is a never-ending process that I have to go through for the rest of my career life. That way, I'll finally be able to pick up the pins and needles that have hurt me so bad, never encounter and step on them again.

In time I know I'll be successful in fully reconciling with my God-given talent. But as of the moment, I'll continue on improving until I reach my dream. And because I am armed with encouragement from friends and prayers sent up above, I think I'll manage. I will become my dream.

God's Love

It’s really hard to go looking for God sometimes. Waiting for Him to appear is even harder to do. But the hardest I think is not acknowledging the fact that He will come and find you, living with nothing to look forward to everyday because you do not accept “the reality of God” that other people rejoice in and live with everyday.

God is waiting for us to accept Him, and then that’s the time He will come find us. Because even though He comes and finds us, yet at that time we do not believe in His existence, then we still won’t be able to see and feel His presence around us.

My comment on Tommy: Simple Story of God's Love posted on my friend's blogsite.

Live. Laugh. Love.

Live, laugh, love. These are three of the most important things in life that I think I'm forgetting to do lately. I know it was because of a lot of problems that had me almost give up. I have absolutely zero motivations and naturally, inspirations rarely come as well. Ranting is what I've been doing, focusing on problems, when what I should be doing is to find solutions to my problems. But here's the thing, how do you solve a performance problem in work?

I really don't want to dwell on that anymore. I've had it with ranting (I hope. Hehe), crying over work (yes, I did), anger, and dwelling about how hopeless I am right now. As my mum said, there are still a lot of problems that are worse than mine so I have to be thankful. Yeah, I think I'll do that. I'll start thinking about only the good things that I have. No, not just that, the blessings that I'm receiving. There's still more to come, I know. So, I'll just focus on those. Life will be easier lived that way.

I'm guilty and very much ashamed to admit that I've almost given up my beliefs, given up on myself, and the gravest sin of all, I've almost given up on God. I was crazy back then. Crazy because of all the negative vibes, problems, and anger surrounding me. I've almost drowned, but He pulled me back up again. He still hasn't given up on me and I know He won't. So, I want to take this opportunity to say my simple thanks.

Thank you Lord for not giving up on me, for continuously blessing me even when I'm already at fault, and basically for everything. I owe you a lot and I hope in time, I'll be able to repay you by making you really proud of what I've become. I Love You.

I've said it. Yay! I feel so light-hearted and warm right now. In fact, I wanna sing my made-up song. LOL!

Bad vibes go away, don't come again another day.

Haha. Does it make sense? Well, anyway, I'm just so happy I'm okay now. I know there will still be lots of problems to come but I hope I don't lose my sanity over them. Hehe.

Another song,

Umaaraw, umuulan
Umaaraw, umuulan
Ang buhay ay sadyang ganyan

Umaaraw, umuulan

Wag kang maawa sa iyong sarili
Isipin na wala ka nang silbi
San’ dambuhalang kalokohan

Bukas sisikat ding muli ang araw
Ngunit para lang sa may tiyagang
Maghintay............

Kaibigan,
Wag kang magpapatalo
Kaibigan,
Itaas ang noo

Thanks a lot to the people who've helped me get through it all. My friends, my boyfriend, and my family. And of course, God. =)

Here's to another great journey ahead. Cheers!

How to Cope Up with the Stress of Work

I admit, the stress of working too much is draining me fast. Depression attacks and anger are the common results of the stress I get from work. I even told my friends that my work gets the fun out of writing. That's something, as I enjoy and love writing ( the very reason I took journalism obviously).

So, how do I still manage to get all things done, and still reach the incentive scheme of the company I work in?

• Have music in my ears
• Submerge myself in the aroma of my instant coffee (LOL) and drink it
• Browse sites not related to my work (after I'm done working on an article)
  
• Talk to my Oriental Love, Mike
• Chat with my officemates
  

• Pester my Hippie Boss (LOL! And yes, he really is my boss!)
  

• Cover myself with a blanket (during times that our office suddenly becomes Canada)
• And of course, blog!
  

Oh, and yeah, look at cute (and cuddly) things, as suggested by my officemate Rico in his blog post, A Dose of Cute Makes You Happy Enough to Get Things Done.

I am already aware of this that's why I carry a stuffed bear around the office. Unfortunately, this is how I Look like when I do that.

Although I think it scares my officemates, especially my boss who suffers the most from my "Teddy Bear Grenades." (Evil laugh)