Study.
Read the Word.
Work.
Wall decor.
Write. Or blog.
Inspiration comes in the evening (late at night when I should really be sleeping) and I get giddy with excitement to start doing the things I want to do. Inspiration comes at night and I forget sleep (or rather I can't) as I want to do everything all at once. Inspiration comes when I drink coffee. High with caffeine (like right now), I start wanting to read the books I have at home, borrow more from the library (seriously), and think of topics (and their post title) that I can write about in my "active" blogs - about three now.
In the hours between those, I usually only do one thing, leisurely at that,and slave away myself and my time. And the next thing I know, the day has gone and I've not done anything productive. Or in the morning, when waking up, I forget the inspiration and just opt to stay in bed and sleep in. It's a sad and embarrassing routine.
At the hour of inspiration, I start something and when it runs out, I stop and move on to other stuff. Interests. I have a lot of those. Passion. In what? I have yet to find. Can't all my interests become my passion? I envy those who have been doing one thing, honing one talent they discovered in their childhood until it has become their passion, dreaming of one day being successful at it, and reaching that dream. I envy them but I am inspired as well now. Aspire to be like them - be a dreamer, but wake up and chase those dreams. Do everything in my power and ask for God's help and guidance in realizing and living it to the fullest. Make the most of my time and use it for the fulfillment of dreams.
The list, of course, is incomplete. But for now, I need to focus on those. If I do everything in my list, I'd have to be a stranger to my family and friends and lock myself up in my home. Leisurely activities will have to be put on the back burner. Or at least those that tend to suck me in too deep.
Lifestyle change is what I need. While that is for sure not going to happen anytime soon, I am slowly but surely easing my way out of bad habits and easing myself in to a more productive routine. Baby steps. Time management. Know my priorities.
Le sigh. I want to be a superwoman.
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Lord, I pray for determination to get me started, inspiration to produce great work, and motivation to keep me going. I shall praise You and give glory to Your name because of your great work in me. :)
